Before you read on, I must remind you that this is not a place of happy, cheery thoughts, but a place for me to vent.
Today, I am having a very, very, bad, dark day. I am obviously very depressed as I cannot manage to get the simplest task done.,
As with every other day, mom is pacing back and forth, non-stop, from the time she wakes up to the time she goes to bed. She is calling my name the whole time, getting mad when I don't answer and getting mad when I do. Sometimes she calls me by my name, sometimes it's Dionicia, her sister's name. Dionicia past away many years ago. Otherwise I would go pick her up and make her stay with me for a while (I wish!) She asks me questions that don't make sense and gets mad when I can't answer them correctly. Or if I do try to answer them, she gets mad because I didn't tell her sooner.
This goes on all day, every day. And it's driving me crazy. She's on the maximum amount of meds from her doctor. I know if I go in to ask for more meds, he's going to strongly suggest I put her in a home. I don't even know where to begin with that.
When I say mom does this all day every day, from the time she wakes up to the time she goes to bed, this is in no way an exaggeration. It is very literal.
I wish your family would step up and help you out. You are a very strong woman to be able to live this all day every day with little to no relief. Big hugs. -Gen
Posted by: Genevieve Rodriguez | October 12, 2009 at 07:15 PM