Trust

Almost two years ago I really learned what not being able to trust someone actually meant.  I trusted everyone.  I mean everyone.  If someone screwed me over and then did something nice again, I would forget the past and trust again.

Today, I honestly do not understand what is going on, but I do not trust ANYBODY!  I know it's not paranoia.  I know my perception is true.  I just don't know what the hell happened to all the people around me?

Did they have me fooled all these years?  Was I naive by assuming the best out of everyone first and not keeping myself a bit guarded.  I think that might be it.

And what sucks the most, what breaks my heart and truly makes me sad to tears, is that I will never, EVER have that trust I had again.

So I have you, my closest, dearest family members, loved ones and friends who have turned on me, to thank for this life changing moment.

It's sad.  Really sad.  And I do hope you know if I'm talking about you.  Think about it.  Maybe you think that I don't know things that you have said or things you have done.--- But, maybe I do. 

If you are one of these people, who don't have my best interest at heart, leave me the hell alone.  Seriously.  Be gone with you.

Peace.

Comments

[Stayce DeWid]

been there girl. I promise you will find that one person and you will trust again. it may be a long road....but there is light at the end :)

{{HUGS}}

[Genevieve Rodriguez]

Ditto! Glad you're venting. Take care of yourself.

[rochellespears.blogspot.com]

Awww Robin! I hate to see you in so much pain. :( Take care of yourself!!!