My mind spins at the thought of how a person comes into our lives.
With depredation you give your everything to that person, your heart, your soul. You find that you would do anything for them.
Without any special ceremony or even specific words spoken, you are completely committed to that person for the rest of your life. You realize you have actual unconditional love for them and you let that person know.
...then that person walks out and leaves forever.
What am I supposed to do with these feelings of unconditional love and total commitment? They are left, open raw, like a fresh, bloody, gravel imbedded road rash.
That person is gone. What do I do with what I have still in my heart? I have to ignore it, shove it down, pretend like it's not there. Pretend that life just keeps on going. Put a smile on my face and say, "Yes, I'm doing great! Life is coming along peachy.😃"
That's the only thing that one can do.
Where do I go from here? Meet another person that comes into my life?
With depredation i give my everything to him, my heart, my soul. I find myself that i would do anything for that person.
Without any special ceremony or even specific words spoken, I am completely committed to that him for the rest of my life.
...how many times can a person do this without becoming completely numb to any feelings at all?
Arrrggggh! I'm so mad at myself that I didn't go back and get into the face of that little girl with the big, black ear plugs, at the register, at Staples!
The line at the register was slow. There were plenty of people working. She called up an employee to help at the registers when customers were lining up, not because of me. When I walked up to her, there was no one in line. When someone came up to the line, I moved out of the way so she could help them while I waited.
I was buying a pack of ink for my printer. I was turning in some ink cartridges for recycling so I could get $2 off my next purchase for each cartridge. I was using a coupon for $14 from the last time I recycled cartridges. AND, I was returning an ink cartridge for a refund. This ink cartridge was still in packaging, never used. But, I did not have a receipt.
I asked, please see if there is anything I can get for it. She ask me if I just wanted to recycle it....for $2 off my next purchase. " Can you please just see if there is anything more I can get for it? I'm on a REALLY tight budget." At this point she got perturbed and real put out. She proceeded to look up my credit cards for the purchase and call the manager. The cashier was really irritated. The manager looked up my Rewards account and found my receipt. It was old, but not as old as I thought it was. The manager printed out the receipt and I was credited that amount towards my purchase.
I thanked the cashier for her trouble. She said, "No problem."
Once I walked out the door, I was pissed. Yes, it was NO PROBLEM. That's YOUR JOB! You get paid by the frickin' hour! This money is NOT getting taken out of your pay check. The company is getting back a new ink cartridge. They are not losing money. You, whiney, little, brat!
You wanted me to take a $2 credit over $19.99 for maybe 5 minutes of work that you're already getting paid for?!